Tuesday, January 19, 2010

I crave the drama...

So I'm realizing more and more that I apparently crave drama. I don't think I know how to live life without it anymore. In friendships, in relationships, in decisions (and indecision) about the future - I don't just always have drama. I think I create it.

So maybe today is the day.

Today is the day to make a change.

Do I know what will happen next year? No. And it's time to admit that and stop making predictions.

It's time to be more careful with other people.

It's time to grow up and cut out the drama.

In other news, I may be "coaching" a new cheerleading squad/pep club that they're starting in the high school. Haha... Getting involved in cheerleading again. That doesn't sound like a good start to cutting out drama!

Monday, January 18, 2010

LOOK! :)

I made the Brook Hills website! :)

And it's just in time too. These kids are in rare form, even for them...





Oh, Day 3...

Our school has this weird schedule that we follow based on Days 1, 2, 3, 4, and 5 instead of just Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. Today is Day 3. Day 3 is my least favorite day of the entire week, because as you can see, my main break occurs from 7:45-8:15. At this hour, I have little to no desire to do anything productive in the way of teacher responsibilities. No one wants to grade papers or plan lessons at 7:45 in the morning! Of course, Day 3 is followed by my favorite day... Day 4! Lots of breaks and times of productivity occur on Day 4. :)

So here I am. My kids are at PE, and I am blogging. :)

I've really questioned throughout this journey why God would show me the poor side of Honduras and help me to love them and then send me to the wealthiest side. But who am I to judge who knows Him or needs Him and where He wants me?

In the Passport class that I taught at Brook Hills last year, we talked about a multiplication Gospel instead of an addition Gospel. If each person invests in a small group, and each of those in turn invest in a small group, and so on - the the Gospel spreads much more rapidly than if we all just pour into one.

So this year, my "small group" is composed of 22 fifth graders who have way more potential than I do to help the spiritually and physically poor of Honduras. Perhaps if I, and the other teachers here, share our hearts with them, God will lead them (at least some of them) toward making a tremendous difference in the future.

I feel like I'm finally getting it. :)

Please pray for the other new fifth grade teacher, Kirsten Lundgren. She is a first-year teacher who was given what is probably the worst class in the entire elementary school. I know that being here has been a struggle for her, and each day feels like a losing battle. Please pray that God will give her strength to persevere and change her students' hearts, words, and actions.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Weekend happenings...

I love the weekends...

Friday night, I felt like a normal person. I felt like I had a life for the first time in about a week... A group of us went down the mountain right after school to go to dinner at a nice-ish Italian restaurant. The food, the company, and the conversations were enjoyable. Then we went bowling, where I proceeded to give a less than mediocre performance. Nonetheless, I enjoyed myself and the freedom of my youth. :)

Yesterday, I skipped the 6:30am market run and opted to sleep in a little bit. The weather has been really gorgeous this weekend, so Sarah and I went for a walk before going into the city for lunch and to check out a gym that we're thinking of joining. With all that walking around in a tank top, my shoulders were left feeling a little crisp - in January!!!

At 2:30, we met up with some people in El Centro and went to volunteer at the feeding center. We drove through Comayaguela and over some really rough "dirt roads" until we got to the center. Even though I live in Honduras, sometimes it can be shocking when I come face-to-face with poverty and poor living conditions. I was thrilled though when the kids saw us walking up the road and came running to greet and hug us! I actually had a really bad headache while we were there, and I was intimidated by by lacking knowledge of Spanish, but otherwise - I really enjoyed it. I'm supposed to start going there every other Saturday, so I wanted to take a few pictures to share with everyone. I'll include those on the end of this post...

Today was church at Impacto and lots of lazy time watching TV.

The last two weeks feel like they have gone by pretty quickly, and I'm feeling better physically and emotionally. I know that God is answering the prayers that are being lifted on my behalf, and I'm thankful.

I have so much to learn.

One of the high school counselors is reading the book Forgotten God by Francis Chan, and I'm going to borrow it when she is finished. Last night, she posted a couple of quotes on her blog that really got all over my toes... I'll leave you with those and the pictures.

- when you so casually say you were "called to a place" what do you mean? what would that place look like if you weren't there? what would the church look like if everyone gave and served and loved like you do... would it be healthy?
- God may have called you to be exactly where you are. But, it's absolutely vital to grasp that He didn't call you there so you could settle in and live out your life in comfort and superficial peace.
















Thursday, January 14, 2010

El Presidente

I was sitting at the very large table in the back of my classroom reading a book with a small group of students and attempting to monitor the behavior of the rest of the class when I heard a commotion outside of my classroom. Children were running and screaming (which is actually nothing new for our fifth grade classes...) and being quite disruptive. Then I heard them scream the reason for their excitement. It came out in one very unexpected word.

"Micheletti!!!"

"What or who is a 'Micheletti'?" you ask?

Oh, that's right. He's the current president of Honduras.

When they arrested their president for violating the constitution, and kicked him out of the country in his pajamas in the middle of the night last June, this is the man that was sworn into office just hours later...

This is the same man who stood up against the Organization of American States and pressure from the Obama administration to step down and reinstate the ex-president.

This man is now a huge part of Honduran history.

And he came to our school today.

One of our third graders has a parent who is some sort of government official. This parent arranged a field trip for the third grade class to visit the presidential palace. They visited this Honduran equivalent of the White House yesterday, but the president was not there. How did he make it up to the kids? By visiting them at school the next day, of course!

At first I didn't believe it, but when I saw the guards and men in full military uniform standing around strategically, I realized that the screams and cheers were justified.

As could be expected, my students were hard to contain after hearing that the president was somewhere nearby. They all darted for the door when I told them to line up for PE. Of course, being the mean teacher that I am, I sent them all back to their seats to "try again" to walk to form a line. Along with that, I tried to impress upon them the proper behavior that should be shown to a person in a position of importance. I attempted to remind them that silliness and hyperactivity were not the best way to greet a president, and I even threw in, "Don't embarrass your parents!"

While they were in PE, I went with Erika to basically become one of those annoying onlookers who stand around the outskirts of a frenzy and just watch it all happen. At that point, he was in the third and fourth grade building signing autographs and taking pictures with kids and teachers. All of our administrators were there, looking overjoyed. They knew he was coming all along. They just didn't tell the teachers!

Because of the wild popularity of the idea of meeting the president, they arranged for him to walk around the school visiting classes and taking pictures with students. I feel like he shook the hand of, kissed the head of, or patted the back of half of the elementary students at Pinares today. It was obvious that it turned into a publicity event, but it was exciting for the students to meet someone that they called a "national hero" before he hands the office over to the newly elected president.

Our entire grade was arranged in picture formation outside as he finished in the kindergarten building and approached our end of the campus. (I secretly and sometimes not so secretly enjoy seeing others deal with and struggle with our students. It reminds me that it's not just me...) The students cheered wildly as he rounded the corner and came toward our group. He greeted everyone and shook my hand. Then he lead the children in cheering "Viva Honduras!" and he climbed into the middle of our group for the photo-op. He requested that the teachers also step into the center of the group to stand with him. That was awkward because the students were packed together so tightly. As the people with cameras stepped back to prepare to take the pictures, I assume that someone told the kids to my left to scoot in more. All I know is about fifteen kids got pushed closer to the center, and I (being the same size as a typical fifth grader) also got bumped and had to catch myself from falling literally right in front of the president. He said, "Be careful."

I didn't have my camera with me today, but I will try to get copies to share...

After the pictures had been taken, and after he shook my hand again and kissed me on the cheek (the traditional Honduran greeting) our students started swarming around him to hug him or shake his hand - anything to touch the president, and I went into bodyguard mode, pulling them off one kid at a time saying, "Go! Go upstairs! Leave him alone..."

Of course, with a class that is often uncontrollable on a regular day, there was no hope of getting them to re-enter the classrooms and return to their desks. The entire grade lined up along the railing of the second story of our building where our classrooms are located and proceeded to cheer the entire time that Micheletti took pictures with the sixth grade class on the blacktop down below. At one point, Kirsten and I were just shrugging our shoulders and smiling at each other when some of the kids from her class started yelling a Spanish word down the line to the other students. Neither Kirsten, nor I, had any idea what they were saying until we saw it in action... Essentially it was,

"THE WAVE!"

Yes. That's right. The fifth grade did the wave in honor of the president.

And then they sang the national anthem. Many of them don't actually know the words yet (because it's sooo long) but they sang with gusto.

And what did he do?

He looked up, waved, and put his hand over his heart as they sang...

It pretty much made their day.

It also provided a wonderful teachable moment to talk about famous people and the temptation to idolize them... Our class had a good discussion about the acknowledgement that it was a huge event to meet and touch a man who has made so much history in Honduras this year but to remember that he is just a man... It would even be okay to wash our hands again after touching him... :) Then we reflected on our hypothetical reaction if Jesus came to school tomorrow. Would we scream and cheer and dance? Would we rush to touch Him? Would we sing for Him and do the wave?

Just some questions to ponder in fifth grade... :)

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

And today makes three...

Today is our third cold morning in a row, but I've finally gotten smart. I brought my heater fan from my apartment! After all, it's small enough to fit into my backpack, and it feels great blowing on my feet when I'm sitting at my desk. The door and windows are closed (or at least, as "closed" as they get here with this style of window), but I still don't think this heater has anything on this room. Poor kids... Maybe the sun will come out and it will warm up quickly today.

I had a weird dream last night about being at "home", but it was the people that made it home - not the place. My parents were helping me figure out which car to drive to go somewhere with my sister and two other people, and we ended up taking the car that I had when I was 16. I remember my sister getting really mad at me at one point (Yep! Just like home!!!), and I also remember passing a lot of Party City's (Party Cities?) and saying, "Wow. This culture must like to party! We have Party City in Honduras too..." (We don't...) I don't know... I have no explanation. But last night, I was with my mom, dad, and sister - and I didn't want to wake up. :)

Today, one of the PE teachers is starting 5th and 6th grade intermural soccer during recess. 5A kicks it off playing against us (5B) and then 6A will play 6B. This is the talk of the school, and it's nice because we (the teachers) get to choose who is eligible to play based on behavior, turning in assignments, etc. This is really working out in my favor, and I hope it will motivate some of them to be more responsible...

Okay... I need to go. We're about to start division with two-digit divisors for the first time in their lives. It's a big day in 5th grade!