A Day of Disappointment

Today is February 1st. All of my application materials were due today for the program at Alabama. I thought maybe this day could be the beginning of a new opportunity until I received this email:

Dear Jamey,

Thank you for expressing interest in our graduate programs in the Department of Human Development and Family Studies at the University of Alabama. From your application we understand you are interested in pursuing a career as a Child Life Specialist. Though our department no longer offers a graduate program in Child Life, our undergraduate program is thriving. We would be more than happy to consider your current application for one of our other graduate programs (i.e. Human Development, Family Studies, or Marriage and Family Therapy). You may want to visit our website at http://ches.ua.edu/departments/hd/graduates, to learn more about these outstanding master’s programs. If one of these sounds interesting to you, please reply to this e-mail, state which program you would like to pursue and briefly explain why you would be interested in that particular program.

Thanks again for being interested in our department, and please contact us if you have any questions about our department or about eh graduate programs we offer. Best wishes as you continue your education.

They no longer offer the program... I never saw that coming.

Now what?

I'm frustrated by my discontentment and uncertainty.

In my blog searching yesterday, I found a blog written by a 23-yr-old girl who is teaching for a year at a different bilingual school here in Honduras. Her blog posts ring with familiarity, but I envy her joy.

I wish that this was everything I thought it would be. I wish I didn't feel like there's something wrong with me. But I know there is - I'm a sinner. Maybe I'm just being selfish and disobedient.

I just don't know how to fix it.